"Life is like a sewer.

My hair's starting to grow back. Some may remember that awhile back I
posted about my post-pregnancy joy of loosing all the luscious hair I
developed while pregnant. Well, now its growing back and making me
look silly. I can hide the signs of the growth at my forehead hairline
with bangs, but another place that it happened was at my temples, and
I can't hide that. Oh well - looking like a mad scientist fits my
personality pretty nicely actually.

Today's my last day before my ten day vacation. I'm excited :) Trying
not to build it up though because as long as ten days sound, it will
fly by - my six weeks of maternity leave sure did - the holiday will
make sure of it. Thursday we're going to my sister's for Thanksgiving,
Friday we'll be going to the in-laws, and Saturday we'll be recouping
from the holidays :P

Found R2-D2 in Star Trek - nice Easter egg.

Been playing Dead Space with Paul, it's a good game - very scary. It
would be more scary though if the music let you know you were being
attacked from behind. Sometimes you can't tell until a random limb
appears around your head. Paul thought the game ended at Chapter Six
so imagine our surprise when we beat that boss and got another
objective. Oops, guess we shouldn't have spent all our money trying to
beat that guy.

Only two more weeks until I get my Nook. With the gift card fiasco
cleared up I'm getting more and more excited. I got a sample of Ron
Paul's book, "The Revolution", and was really inspired by the snippet
I read. I think I'm going to check that one out from the library
though because it doesn't seem like a book I'd read more than once.
Now to just find my library :)

Today Star Trek is supposed to be waiting for me at my house when I get home – I’m so excited!!! Once the baby goes down, that puppy’s going IN.

I’m having a hard morning. The audio portion of our A/V setup in our LARGEST conference room wasn’t working today. I wasn’t really in the best of moods and just couldn’t seem to get myself to a mental standing to figure out a solution. At last another person from my department (my company’s IT department) figured to bypass the system with a set of desk speakers and amplify it using the microphones that were already in place and for some odd reason working when the rest was not. I feel like I really dropped the ball – perhaps I should track down the meeting organizer and apologize? The guy’s nice but gives me the creeps, so I’m not sure.

I’m taking an impromptu vacation next week! This week is going to be kind of short because I’m taking Friday off (along with my regular Wednesday) and then next week I already had Thursday & Friday off (along with my regular Wednesday) so I only had to use two days of vacation to make it a full week. So in essence once Thursday of this week is over I’m not going to be at work again for another…TEN DAYS. Awesome Paul and I are REALLY excited, I think I’m going to ask my sister to still watch Evy on Tuesday like always so maybe we can have a day to ourselves – not sure when we’re going to get time off together again.

I’m feeling creative today, I just wish I had something to create One of these years I’m going to do NaNoWriMo – I’m thinking once Evy is not so dependent on me and can entertain herself for more than five minutes – like when she’s my nephew’s age. Of course, if I stay on track with my “family plan” I’ll be prego again come January 2011 so…

I'm so excited! It's going to be here on the 17th - in all it's
Blu-Ray goodness :) I'm so excited!!!!

There are many fish in the sea.
I'm not one to believe in "soul mates" - meaning there is only one person in the entire world that will understand me and love me.

Life goes on.
I'm also not one to believe in tongue a sore tooth. I understand that it takes time to grieve but it shouldn't be a lifetime.

Remember your friends & family.
Your friends & family will always be there for you. ALWAYS. That's why I think it's so important to have strong friendships OUTSIDE of a relationship. There's and Angels & Airwaves song that says it best, "your best friend is not your girl friend" - or at least it shouldn't be your ONLY best friend.

Its better to face the truth, then to live in a lie.
Be glad you pulled off the band-aid and made the hard decision - even if you weren't the one to do it. If either of you were unhappy enough to want to break up then be glad you did.

Landscape -
Green View, Halla

I'm assuming that this
is any "hue" of any color - and I'd choose GREEN. I
think green looks best on me, even though most would assume blue given
my blue eyes.

I already have my dream
vanity license plate :) My car is red, and I wanted something having
to do with Spiderman and I was able to pull out enough of the vowels
and still make it legible so SCORE! Its a dull purpose plate actually,
because people who don't realize it's Spiderman assume it has
to do with the web and I'm a big techie so it all works out
:D

Some new things have come to light in regards to the Nook.

A) You can only lend a book once - IN THE LIFETIME OF THE BOOK. Not
only that, but not all books are lendable, it's up to the publisher.

B) You can't use B&N giftcards to purchase eBooks, because they have
to be associated with a credit card. That means I can't be gifted
during the holidays.

C) I already knew this, but it's coming back repeatedly to bite me in
the ass. Kindle has MUCH better prices on eBooks - period. They also
have more. I'm sure that B&N will eventually catch up, but until then
I'm screwed.

But...but... the Kindle is UGLY. Watching the videos of it doesn't
make me want to use it at all but when I watch the videos of the Nook
I do. So, do I pay more for the books now and limit myself to
selection because the device is better - and HOPE that B&N catches up
- or do I go with the Kindle and hope that the Kindle catches up in
regards to hardware?!

Oh, and I found out that the Nook is selling out like hotcakes,
they've already pushed the preorders (well, if you preorder now - mine
hasn't been pushed back) to the second week in December from the last
week in November. Maybe I can sell it via eBay and get all my money
back and then some?

Yesterday we finally made it to Disneyland! Paul & I have season passes, we
bought them in June, but we hadn't gone back since because we needed someone
to come along and help us with Evy. Paul & I decided to gift my sister early
this year for Christmas with a one day pass to Disneyland - so she could get
a season pass too. It was a lot of fun, I'm glad my sister went because she
kept reminding me not to stress out (like I always do) because we had season
passes. Our trip was filled with a lot of bumps, but just laughing through
them.

We got a late start, good traffic though. Once in Anaheim we stopped at a
Burger King for something to eat - but they wouldn't take our credit cards
so we had to go across the street to another place. We got a bit lost on the
way to the parking because Disneyland was redirecting to a different parking
structure and the signs they had were confusing. Then once we'd parked we
had to ride a bus to the park. Then we got to the park entrance and
discovered that Paul had left his wallet (and his season pass) in the car so
he had to go back. That took awhile because he had to wait for a bus, get to
the parking center, wait for another bus, and then come back. My sister & I
decided to go into the park and get her season pass, but then I discovered
I'd left HER ticket in my purse which was in the car. Luckily Paul was able
to grab it and we got into the park around noon.

We didn't ride very many rides, but we still had a really good day! Pirates
of the Caribbean, Indiana Jones, Haunted Mansion, Space Mountain - bit of
the Christmas parade. We ended up leaving pretty early because we just got
such a late start, but since we have season passes we'll be going back :)

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I'm not feeling very social - online - recently. Not sure why.

I've been spending a lot of my free time playing silly Facebook games, they
are stupidly addicting. I knew I shouldn't have even glanced at one. They're
like homeless puppies, you just can't give 'em up.

Work has been slow this week, this whole month seems slow since I'm waiting
on not only my Nook but also Star Trek on Blu-Ray. Amazon gave me a great
price and promised it would be on my doorstep the day it was released. I
wonder if my Nook will be shipped with the same speed? That's one thing that
rocks about Amazon - their shipping with high profile items.

As much as I hate to admit it, because I really wanted to keep breastfeeding
& pumping until she was a least a year old, I think I might stop
breastfeeding soon. I can't seem to keep up on the medication that keeps my
supply even sufficient enough (we've been having to give her bottles of
formula at night before bed), and even if I do there's no promise that my
supply will even last much longer. Plus, I can't even fathom dieting and
losing weight while doing this and recently I've become so disgusted with my
body. That great feeling I had from knowing that I'd successfully lost all
the weight I put on with the baby is gone and now I'm just left with the
realization that I was fat before the baby too.

But I feel there is a lot standing in my way. I know that if I thought about
it, I could get past it all, but it's hard. I need to learn how to cook -
and to find recipes within my budget and experience level for just two
people. I also need to make the time to exercise as I know that dieting
alone will only do so much. My schedule is very limiting because I have to
wake up at 5am to go to work - and once I get home I just want to spend time
with my family. Most nights I'm in bed by 8:30-9pm, it's a grueling schedule
but it's not changing until AT LEAST Christmas.

But, now that I think about it, I can do it. I can change my schedule at
Christmas, breastfeed until then which'll take me to at least 9 months, and
then start trying to get myself into shape. I hate being a fat mom. I hate
perpetuating the American stereotype of fat, lazy, and careless. I do care.